| And everyday I have to fake a smile and watch you with her wishing it could have been me. We were something you know,you used to make me smile all the time. Now all you ever do is make me cry...when you're with her.
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| I've always thought that rivals were all bad people. That they just came like the rest, with a bitchy stuck up attitude that you'd recognize the second you saw them. But what happened when that person was nothing like you imagined them?
They weren't mean or bitchy, they were the simplest person you knew, the one that got along with everyone else? So how can I hate her if the boy I like, likes her? It's silly. She's not the bad guy. She didn't do anything. He just fell for her and she took my spot in his life unknowingly.
But I still cannot help but to feel sad. Has anyone else ever encountered something like this?
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| The best part was when I saw my wrist bleeding.Other than that it was hell with me trying to block out all the arguements that was going on. I just answered this Featured Question; you can answer it too! |
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| Dear Family, I regret today to call you family for you have done nothing for me but cause pain. Because of you I suffer from depression, along with some other factors, but you the main cause. As I look back upon time I wish to recall some good things about you but all I remember is the argument you always had, the hatred behind them. They continue even to today and I am still helpless. You know how much I wish that it could stop. That we can be like any other family, get along with each other, more importantly love each other. Instead there is hatred, deceptiveness, back stabbers. How can I explain them. They say a family will affect who you are when you grow up and how I wish they are wrong. But I see the proof everyday. It is there in my identity. Because of you I am not confident, because of you I run to the first person that shows me a different life. Because of you I go to bed every night wishing I would never wake again, never have to endure another day of this life with you. Family , I want nothing more than to love you but you make it so hard for me. Do you know what it is to feel trapped, being force to take sides of the people you love the most. Nothing tears me apart like that does. I am very sorry but I cannot endure this anymore. It hurts to see my mom tears fall because of how my grandmother treats her. Like she is not worth anything. It hurts me to see my dad not for once sees that my grandmother is wrong. It hurts to know that my grandmother makes my mother look like an evil person to her sons, daughter, daughter-in-laws, son-in-laws and see them all hate my mother. I love my grandmother more than anything In the world but she isn't what I thought she was. For once in my life I see the injustice and I feel so guilty that I can't do anything about it. How I love them all, but they make it so hard for me. How I wish they would stop this. But what can I do, I am nothing but a mere child … Yours, Girl who loves you all. |
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| To the people on xanga. Maybe you aren't an well known person to the world But to me you are much of a hero as anyone else. The things one community can do for us. You all write, you add friends, you support them. It shows that we humans are not all bad. You support each other in bad times, pick up for one another in an arguments. You guys show the true meaning of people. You show the good side of human nature and to me its really the best thing I've seen in a while. I may not meet any of you but in some way you have taught me so much and you do not know how grateful I am to you all. Once upon a time, if anyone said the slightest negative thing about me I would feel extremely bad. But you know what. I would say I didn't deserve it. I don't though, maybe, but just pouting about it shows that I am very childish. There will always be people like that and the best thing I have learnt from you people on here is that it doesn't really matter. Yes we have feelings, our heart isn't made out of stone and of course we shall feel bad. But that doesn't mean we are to give up all that we have built because of one mean thing someone says. I was like that, maybe I still am but I have realized something. Negativity doesn't always have to affect you like that. You can use negativity to make your self a better person. Maybe even work harder to show that person they can't bring you down. So maybe when someone says something mean to me I do not have to go away and sulk and feel bad for the rest of my life. Maybe I should thank them sometimes, because it doesn't matter once you believe in yourself and you know that people support you. |
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